Happy Birthday to the woman that made a lasting impact on me.
I can so easily remember the memories in Harrietta's home. Our Harrietta. Our grandmother. It almost seems fake.. the relationship we had. Fake because it was so incredible and rare, but how blessed am I to know it was so unbelievably real. I remember hanging out with some friends and being told I needed to meet "grandma." We walked to the end of the road, went to the right side of the home, opened the gate, and walked down the stairs, to meet this "so called Grandmother." As the door opened, it wasn't hard to realize this woman was an angel on earth. She greeted me as if she had known me for years, as she treated everyone. At the time I don't think I knew how influential this woman would be on me, I don't think any of us did for that matter.. but the visits continued. If you were looking for Tiff, Tori, Hannah, Jayne, or I after school.. you could be sure to find us there. Doing who knows what.. but I promise you what we were, was happy. Whether we were making new national days such as Macaroni day, or laying upside down letting our drool run into our noses (gross I know) I felt important. I felt as though she cared more than any other human could. She had such a large capacity to love. I look back and feel as though I merely took that time for granted. I wish, more than anything, that I could walk down to her cozy home and just talk to her. She was more than a listener. She would listen to your problems, then make you feel such peace that you couldn't help but believe things would get better. Her famous candy drawer, stocked especially for us, and the cards she sent out on every single holiday with the crisp dollar bills... what a sweet, sweet, lady to say the least. When her health was failing I remember being so confused.. why? Why would she be taken from us? One day, I wanted my mom to meet her so we went and got her a smoothie and a little pink stuffed animal, bunny. Though not feeling well at all, she was ecstatic to meet my mom. I showed her the bunny then went to the kitchen to grab some scissors to snip off the little plastic c shaped thing, that they hang the stuffed animals from in the store. She stopped me and said that I should leave it on. She pointed out that the plastic piece would help it hang perfectly from the window right in front of her bed. I hung it up and she had this priceless grin on her face. It made me feel so important that I had given her a gift that she wanted to hang right in front of her. The next visit she told me how much happiness it brought to her.. She made me feel beyond important. I can remember the night perfectly that I got a call from Tiff, in the middle of the night, saying that I should come over and say my goodbyes. I couldn't. I had to tell her no.. because I literally could not say goodbye. She could not be gone. She couldn't leave us.. Our best friend could not go. Later this incredible woman moved onto better things.. as she passed, life seemed like a blur for awhile. It was hard to understand at that age. But today it is her birthday, and I can't help but want to celebrate her. Our Harrietta.
Today we celebrate the birthday of the woman who taught us endless amounts of valuable lessons. She taught us to live our beliefs, through our actions. That if you believed in the church.. You BELIEVE in it. She worked hard to gain the knowledge she had. She created a bond between the girls that went over there.. it was almost like The sisterhood of the traveling pants to me.. like this previously unknown source, created a relationship between all of us that could have never been predicted.. but is so eternal. I can't believe it has been six years grandma. I miss you.. more than words could ever be described. I can't wait to see you again.. and thank you, because I don't think I did enough then. Thank you for the safe haven you created for us, for the support, the listening ear, the happiness, and literal ray of sunshine that you were. I can't believe you are gone.. because reminiscing on these memories makes me feel as though we are all back in your living room.. when life seemed so easy. I miss you, I miss you, I miss you. Thank you grandma, for teaching me what endless, limitless, forever, eternal, under no conditions, pure, love is. Happy birthday. I love you.
(at her grave before the headstone was set.. Love these girls with my entire heart)